M & M’s (aka micah and mom moments)

Micah: I love you so much mom.

Me: Micah, if you love me, then obey my commands.

Micah: Well, I just saw in a magazine, that if I say I love you, that means I can do whatever I want.

time for honest.

i have been trying to decide if i should really say how i feel. how silly is that? as if there is ever a choice in the matter? i am and have been okay with the diagnosis of lupus. because, really, it is just that, a diagnosis. the reality is, that i have been feeling the physical problems associated for a few years. and that is where my decision on whether to be honest fits in. i feel, currently, fair. today is the first day back down to ten mgs. of prednisone, and i can tell. my hip burns, my shoulder burns, and i am so tired that, at times it seems almost impossible to even move the muscles on my face. blinking wears me out. prior to now, i would just say, yep, i feel fine. but the truth is i don’t. and i am having to come to terms with the fact that not feeling physically strong, does not make me a weak person. having people constantly asking how i am doing makes me feel somehow inferior, and that is something i am going to have to get over. there is a lot i have to learn, and my lot is to learn. so i will. how am i you ask? i feel like crap, and that is okay.

October in Iowa

i call this … anticipation!

proud boy

about thirty seconds after this picture was taken, brody’s pumpkin hit the floor, and shattered into about ten pieces. dad came through though, and got it all stuck back together with toothpicks!

Carved

From left to right: Isaiah’s, Emily’s, Brody’s little one, Hannah’s cat, Micah’s, Amy’s, and Steve’s skull.

Beautiful day for pumpkin pickin’

Took the kids to Hoops today to get their pumpkins, tonight we will carve….

the pumpkins

hay ride

new friends….